L is for the way I loathe to love.

Talking to someone's mum the other day spun my wheels in the wrong direction for awhile.

After some experiences, I had learnt to be more pragmatic when it comes to affairs of the heart. I scoff at airy-fairy words like romance and true love and what nots, and turn my back on ever hoping to find the one who fits all.

Not that I've changed my mindset on it really.

It was, perhaps, just that what she said made me think twice about my perspective that finding the right partner is a matter of trade-offs. I've more or less conditioned myself to believe that you can only either choose A or B. There's no A & B. Just not possible.

I still believe that. Only that I've come to realize shortchanging yourself in a relationship isn't the best thing either. That is not to say one looks for someone who has all the qualities you look for, or asking someone to be perfect all the time. It simply means that, asides from understanding relationships do go through dry spells, one perhaps shouldn't just be in a relationship where one is merely comfortable. Without the drive or passion to love or give. Because then there's no beauty to fight for.

I still think I'm as cynical and pragmatic as ever. Just perhaps a little bit clearer now.

If only making friends were as easy as using Amazon.com, networking as easy as Facebook, and finding your partner as easy as Google.

. Arigato .