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Seasons greetings, fellas.

So I'm finally back, online and in Singapore.

While I have been conspicuously absent to alot of people (the new house is further away than expected, and frankly I'm a lazy sod...), and the blog has been rusting away, I must say had I the Internet connections on those nights, I would have been writing a heck lot more.

Meaning to say, I've been going through alot.

There's no need to dredge up memories of the past, because it's Christmas, and because it's also at times, painful. The trouble with nostalgia (have I mentioned the fact that I'm obsessed with it?) is that it's not always painted in nice sepia tones.

I wish I could tell you about the sleepless nights. I wish I could tell you about the times when I was so desperate to write down those thoughts, some form of therapeutic cartharsis when everything seemed impossible.

But those moments have passed into yesterdays. So you just wave at them as they pass you by.

So while I pack up this year's keepsakes and treasures, if I were to reflect upon it, I guess it has been one of the most difficult years, and I hope I have learnt much and grown much from it. And this Christmas Eve, with the joy and yuletide outside my window, I do still wonder from time to time if perhaps I might regret things. And you begin to understand what it means to grow up and shoulder responsibilities, of meeting life's deadlines, or even worrying if you ever gonna find the one that you can come home to.

But I know that when fun is fun and done is done, you don't sit and look at what you might have tried to fix, but what you can do the next time round.

And while I still lament the lack of tinsel lights and jovial decorations for my past 5 Christmasses, I must tell myself that sometimes Christmas is not just about the festive feel, but sometimes you gotta find the joy that inspires Christmas.

So Merry Christmas to one and all. I might take a brief Christmas hiatus the next two days, or I might not. Either way, I'll see you before we say goodbye and are finished with 2007.

Have a merry one =)


. Arigato .