if it makes you happy.

I spent the day trying to figure out if my symptoms are biochemical, psychological, or emotional. I get pretty tired of being like this, and it makes me weary.

I need to increase my seratonin and dopamine levels. That way I have one less excuse.

She tells me we all have our own battles to fight, because we are fashioned in a way only He understands.

I've been wondering and I think character-building, albeit very hard and sometimes downright unfathomable, sometimes isn't always in the context of preparing you for bigger things. I think sometimes life just plain sucks, and you can either choose to be weak and give up, or you carry on despite the struggles because well, quitting isn't an option.

I watched The Pursuit of Happyness today. And it made me think that personal happiness is never an attainable goal. There are too many kinks involved, and it remains forever elusive because it's a chasm never meant to be fulfilled until you physically expire and we move on to what lies ahead.

But while that is a pipe-dream we cannot attain, we can at least make it easier for some others. That when we face enormous difficulties, we can be beaten down and feel like there's nothing there for us, but if we have someone to fight for, someone's happiness at stake, then the strength to pursue someone else's happiness carries us through.

And I guess that's more important and precious than mine.

To live for others. That's what I'll like to aspire for.


. arigato .