pendulum.

Truth is,

I am no wiser than a year ago.

There's still too many
mistakes that repeat and
character flaws that need
rebuilding and don't even get
me started on my understanding
on relationships.

Sometimes I sit back and wonder
(albeit too much).
Thinking if perhaps,
if one could wind back the time, would
different be better?

I've learnt that I am inherently
selfish, and am hopelessly
hopeless at it.

And no closure brings back
the past in vivid forms that
haunt, disguised as nostalgia,
begging for return to what feels
comfortably familiar, despite knowing
there's no fair ending.

Only dust and emotions.

. Arigato .