the telltale heart.

It scares me that my default mode is a cynical bitter introvert. I'm like a grumpy old man stuck in a small can. Which means that my character building process will be pretty darn tough, I'd say.

Patience has become a commodity that I can actually physically feel these days. When at times I clamp down my urge to shoot off my mouth to say what I think, or to react, I can feel my temper bubbling underneath, in which patience is that thin barrier that manages to hold it together.

And I wish I had a bigger heart. Because there's alot of people out there whom despite all the flaws and imperfection that come with everyone (oh yes, which I have a healthy dose of), they all just need a little love. And I wish I had more empathy than apathy. I'm learning, but boy, it's not easy.

Words into thoughts. Thoughts into deeds. The fruits of the spirit will only grow where the seeds fall on the right soil.

Character building is painful. But it's worth it.

Deep breath, buddy. We can all do it.

. Arigato .